I feel like my life is about to change... and I'm full of longing and wanting and fear and excitement... I don't even know what to do with myself. It probably also doesn't help that I'm all alone in my apartment.

God I'm so scared. Everyone says I deserve this. I know I deserve something good to happen. People don't always get what they deserve though. I'm frightened of how willing I am to give up everything for this. I don't know if that is a sign of devotion or insanity.

He's really lovely.

backwards x onwards

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